I don't know who I am and where I come from
I don't know what I want and how I feel
I don't know what to do and what to need
I don't know myself

And yet I go and go, like everybody else
sometimes waking up in my room and not understanding
how I got here and what I do here
or not being able to concentrate
to even look
my body is still here, but I am not
not breathing
and it's just a rollercoaster
where I sit with eyes closed.

I pick up a fight
to get rid of You
or to get rid of this feeling
irritability, anxiousity
Go, go, just go!
Leave, before I scream for you to leave
Cause I cannot stand to be close
to be opened

to be loved.
Like You love me.

You touched my heart, but I am still broken
and my heart is so closed
my pain is pushing me to hurt you
but I love you

I always ask them to take me away
Please, take me away
They never do
But I think, if they would, I would still run away
Perhaps
I cannot live
without pain.