Today i am empty
today i feel nothing
when it´s cold i´d like to die.

Today i would leave all here, to go back
my home, my family, my friends
my city
my sea
my lake
my moments.
Birds flying, stones and woods, trees and flowers.

I need rain.
To go out and walk and run in the rain
i need moment of lonelyness
i need some feelings, which would be more real than i had in past
i need to feel something
besides sadness.
tiredness.
sleeping.
wanting.
but not knowing.

I need it to feel true again.

I am afraid, that what seems to be gold, may not be the real gold.
But i was too passionate to believe in it.

I have some doubts.