Üheks hetkeks ma murdusin.

"Have U ever admited that it is quite impossible to be with U? Have U ever admited that it is not possible to be with such a moody and depressive girl? That it would killed everybody? U wrote in the last email that your only problem was that U were quite moody and depressive. It is as U saw it. But it is not as I saw it. I am sorry for saying that, but I really lost a smile at all in my face after a few months with U. I am sorry for saying that but, after other few months it would be me, who would need a psychologist. these depressions will kill everything anyway. Sooner or later!
I am very sad, but I am afrtaid that U will end with alcohol only, I guess U will have some boyfriends, but all of them will leave U. Sooner or later. Then U curdle, U will start hating boys. So perhaps U will only sleep with them and then U will leave them before they leave U. U will punish them for your behaviour. Well U can do that now, because U are a beautiful girl. Of course, U can have hundreds of boys. But no one will stay with U for all your life. U know, time will go and once in the future U will have wrinkles, U will not be this beautiful girl who can seduce and have anybody she wants. But after some time everybody leaves u. Sooner or later. U will never have the love who U look for. U will swear about your fate. U will swear about men, That's my vision, which I am afraid of."

Selline kiri, mille ma sain. Esimesel hetkel ma tõesti murdusin. Mõtlesin loobumisele.
Aga siis mõtlesin ümber. Sellepärast, et Mina ei näe ennast sellisena. Mina näen ennast ümbritsemas nii paljusid toredaid ja armsaid inimesi, kes on ikka minuga. Mina näen endas lootust ilusamaks ja paremaks tulevikuks, isegi kui see on väga sügaval. Mina tean ennast oma vigadega, aga ma näen ka enda positiivseid külgi. Ja mind on elu jooksul nii palju armastatud.
Kõige enam, kuidas üks kallis inimene ütles: "Obviously you are not this person, because we all love you so much!"

Ma tahan, et see tekst oleks siin olemas, et ma teaksin iga elatud päev ja hetk millest ma olen üle saanud. Ja kui millestki sellisest suuta tugevam olla, siis midagi raskemat on mul praegu võimatu endale ette kujutada.